I had one of those moments last night…the one where I felt like I didn’t fit in with the people around me, and where I’d normally be down about feeling so different.
Then for the first time (in a very long time) I felt a moment of clarity this morning – I thought about one of the things that I was challenged in therapy to do about my lack of self-esteem in moments like this – my “words of meditation”….simple, but so effective…
“I’m not everyone’s cup of tea…..and that’s OK.”
Being the “square peg” implies negativity, as if my flaws are why I don’t fit in with a certain group. I love that I have a creative sense of humor, but that I’m also an introverted extrovert. (Sidebar: if you’re one of those people who thinks I’m upset when I’m quiet, please re-read the last part of the previous sentence.) There’s no shame in being different this way. And it takes a LOT of patience to stay positive when you’re perceived to be the “square peg” by the people around you.
So today, I fully embrace being 180 degrees different from the people I will be around, and it’s not my worry if they can’t deal with it. Why be a predicable “square”, when I can embrace being a different and unique “shape?”
With all due respect to Paul McCartney and John Lennon…..I am the RHOMBUS. (Koo-koo ka-choo.) 😎