because at the end of the day, it ain’t worth it.

This was a challenging week. It would be very easy for me to slip into saying the word “stressed” and make things seem very negative. I’m choosing not to do this with this post.

I caught myself after my cynical post on the other day – I’m not deleting it, because it was how I was feeling that morning, and I own up to that. Since 4:34 this morning, I’ve been giving a lot of thought as to why I got to that point…

There are a lot of posts about how hard it is for people during the holidays….I’m one of those people. It hasn’t been that I don’t have the ability to celebrate the holidays and enjoy them with others….there are a lot of joyful occasions (birthdays) that my family celebrates in addition to Christmas…for me, it’s the reality and the finality. Both of my parents have passed away, and this time of year has always been very hard, especially since my mom passed away 7 years ago.

Don’t Worry….Be Happy! (And I KNOW that the song is playing in your head right now. (You’re welcome. 😉)

At 4:34 this morning, I made a choice – a choice not to feel down like I always have…there were a lot of issues in the office that were very exhausting this week, and when I took my blood pressure last night, although it wasn’t nearly as high as it was a year ago, it was still above my normal range. I also have gained weight from binge-eating junk food because it’s everywhere in sight, and I’ve been really angry at myself for doing so.

I can choose to be grumpy and pissed for the next five days, or I can say “that was yesterday, this is today” and focus on the frame of mind that I had this summer, being happy and healthy. If I could do that then, why can’t I do that now?

I’m going to enjoy the rest of this holiday season, no matter what happens. I will not be angry at myself, and I will not allow myself to feel down, because at the end of the day, it ain’t worth it.

Published by ltrainlane

Musician, Customer Service Manager, Husband, Father, New York Giants fan, happy-go-lucky (sometimes clothing optional) free spirit....that pretty much sums it up.

2 thoughts on “because at the end of the day, it ain’t worth it.

  1. Lane…I feel you love…been there too.
    I was a manic lately angry, sad and lost but not NOW. Ty for your real, raw, truth. I so appreciate that.
    God bless you Lane…HAPPY EVERYTHING…AND MERRY NEW YOU…and me too. Xo
    Hang in buddy. You going to the new reunion on 6-20-20…I AM! Come, collect a hug…8 do hope you are there cause I think you have courage. Ty for being my friend.
    Love, Bonnie

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  2. Thank you for the reminder………….it really is NOT worth it. Trying to be upbeat, this holiday season is particular hard in light of recent events. Need to remember …………. it is NOT worth it! After I lick my wounds for a bit….. 😉

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