karaoke….my antidepressant tonight.

Tough night tonight. I’m probably not going to see my daughter this weekend for her birthday, as texted to me by my ex-wife (my daughter’s choice, not mine), and I just needed to get the fuck out of the house.

I had no idea of where to go, and I couldn’t reach anybody by phone or text to talk about how I’m feeling. It’s a fucked-up combination of disappointment, failure, sadness and anger, and I absolutely fucking hate it.

As I drove down King Street in Alexandria, I passed the Rock-It Grill, which is one of the better know karaoke bars in the DMV. I don’t know why, but the little voice in my head said “When all else fails, just sing”, and that’s why I’m here.

Singing, and trying to not feel numb and detached.

So as I’m writing this, a girl is doing a decent job with Spandau Ballet, which offsets the guy talk-singing Sinatra. But everybody’s having a good time, so the wrong notes don’t count.

This is definitely not where I thought I’d be at 11:35 on Tuesday night, but at least it’s helping me to get out of my head.

Published by ltrainlane

Musician, Customer Service Manager, Husband, Father, New York Giants fan, happy-go-lucky (sometimes clothing optional) free spirit....that pretty much sums it up.

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