Author Archives: ltrainlane

I’m trying to find my motivation again. The motivation to get back in shape. The motivation to practice my Electronic Wind Instrument which I haven’t touched in weeks, as I have no gigs. I’m writing this post as I haven’t been motivated to write, and the feeling of being in neutral has been overwhelming. ForContinue reading “firing on all cylinders.”

2022. We’re only a few hours into the new year, and I feel more optimistic than I did for the majority of 2021. It’s been over 30 days since my last post….a big reason is that even though the last month has been very challenging and stressful, I didn’t feel the need to blog asContinue reading “turning the page.”

The older I get, the more the holidays have become a blur. What used to be my favorite time of the year is now nothing more than a watered-down marketing and sales push, and it tends to bring out the worst in people. I grew up believing that the holiday season started the moment thatContinue reading “black friday has become black november.”

1. My new friends in Milwaukee….there’s a different type of politeness in the Midwest that I wish we had here on the East Coast. 2. Newfound courage. 3. Improved communication. 4. Lactose-free mint chocolate chip ice cream. 5. Finding my voice musically, emotionally and spiritually. 6. Laying on the couch while watching TV with TheContinue reading “8 things for which i’m thankful.”

So much for a good night’s sleep. Our dog Otto is usually our morning alarm clock, as he consistently wakes up between 5:30 – 6:30 every morning. He sleeps in our bedroom, as he likes to sleep on the hardwood floor. Occasionally he’ll have an exception to the norm, and this morning was definitely anContinue reading “a clockwork otto.”

No matter how you calculate his age, it’s still a parental dilemma. Otto is both a toddler in his “terrible twos”, and he’s also an “early year teenager” (14) in human years. This week he reminded me of how he is both. On Monday morning, I had an early morning dentist appointment. I took OttoContinue reading “the dog days of autumn.”

Thank you Will, Luther, Don, Randy and Mike. I watched an incredible movie last night. The movie was “The Last Full Measure”, based on the true story of Air Force Sgt. William Pitsenbarger, an Air Force paratrooper who made the ultimate sacrifice in Vietnam. In April of 1966, he chose to be dropped from hisContinue reading “what can a miracle do?”

It’s been a while. I needed to reboot, for many many reasons. I’m feeling better. (Thank you, The Headspace Show on Netflix for being the pleasant surprise along my journey.) I challenged myself today….I’m making myself write, even though I don’t feel like saying much. Like any good habit, the more you let it slide,Continue reading “(no longer) uninspired….”

……and I’ve caused a lot of damage to people my entire life. Sandy Quaranda, Melissa Fisher, Jennifer Gray, Amanda Donis, Peggy Dyer, Lori Petramale, Tina Pratt, Bonnie Longbotham, Michal Sears Stowe and Jennifer Otto Mendez Stowe – I’M TRULY SORRY. To friends and fellow students and colleagues I’ve hurt along the way – Anne DeWitt,Continue reading “i’m a narcissistic, insecure, social media whore…..”