feeling triggered.

No, this isn’t an April Fools’ blog post.

I had something that came up on my Timehop app today that was a frustrating reminder of a mistake I made….a mistake that can be directly attributed to feeling incredibly awkward and feeling incredibly excluded.

The item in my Timehop was an email, where it was said that “nothing constructive” would come from a conversation towards resolution.

This brought feelings of frustration, guilt, and a little bit of anger – by no means did I feel any rage – it’s the feeling of being stuck.

Easy to say…..if only it was just as easy to do.

It’s bad enough that my ex-in-laws treat me like I’m less than human based on their religious arrogance and their greed, but it’s demoralizing when people don’t want to know the truth (or face it), but continue to look down on you like you don’t even exist.

I know this person isn’t worth my time – it’s the struggle of letting it go, especially when I feel triggered by a reminder of what happened.

Tomorrow is another day – an opportunity to move forward, to remember the positive moments and experiences of life, to continue to embrace who I am, and to treat people the way I hope to be treated.

Time to put this “April Fool” in the rear view mirror once and for all.