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1. My new e-bike….i haven’t been this excited to ride a bike since elementary school! 2. Claritin – pollen, be damned! 3. The sound of Otto flumping down on the hardwood floor as he rolls over at 2am while he’s sleeping….it just sounds really cool. 4. My “music pep talk” from Will Lee….words that IContinue reading “10 things for which I’m thankful.”

If April 1st is April Fools’ Day, to me April 2nd shall henceforth be known as “The Day of Clarity.” Throughout my musical career, I’ve had many people who have inspired me….some have even been (and still are) my “artistic muses,” people who not only inspire me, but who I’ve used as motivation to beContinue reading “when one muse is just a ruse.”

1. That I instinctively decided to “journal” yesterday as a way of processing my feelings, instead of spiraling down the rabbit hole. 2. My 4:20am walk with Otto this morning. It’s during these moments I find clarity that can be very healing. 3. That I now better understand why my mind obsesses over random thingsContinue reading “9 things for which I’m thankful today.”

No, this isn’t an April Fools’ blog post. I had something that came up on my Timehop app today that was a frustrating reminder of a mistake I made….a mistake that can be directly attributed to feeling incredibly awkward and feeling incredibly excluded. The item in my Timehop was an email, where it was saidContinue reading “feeling triggered.”

I don’t expect anyone to understand these, but I’m not gonna worry about it. 1. That I found an app that lets me modulate the keys of my iTunes songs, allowing me to listen to them the way I prefer to hear them. (Sorry, Lee. 😉) 2. That I can quickly find the missing 3rd,Continue reading “10 things for which i’m thankful – the ASD list.”

It’s been a helluva week, and it’s only Wednesday. I was scheduled to have neurophysiological testing at the beginning of April. Because of another patient’s cancellation, I was able to have my appointment and testing yesterday morning and afternoon. Over the course of several hours, I went through a litany of tests, from being askedContinue reading “living with autism (but not knowing it).”

It’s really starting to make sense. Tony Robbins said that “Change happens when the pain of staying the same is greater than the pain of change.” It’s been a struggle to figure out my musical path going forward. Music has always been my way of expressing myself creatively. My fear has been that by notContinue reading “doing things the write way.”

There are a number of theories about the afterlife – do we see a bright light, does our entire life flash before our eyes, do we hear the voice of God, or Allah or whatever higher power we choose or don’t choose to believe? I want to believe that when I get to the afterlifeContinue reading “my blue heaven can wait….”

I went to bed last night, fully expecting a wonderful night of sleep. As Jenn is out of town, my routine with Otto runs like clockwork, and I usually get about 8 hours of sleep. Piece of cake. Boy, was I wrong. A recap….. 2:25 am – the sound of local fire trucks and policeContinue reading “when you’ve had a full day, but it’s only 7:30 am.”

I met with a neurologist two days ago. As some of my friends and family know, I’m trying to confirm if I’m somewhere on the autism spectrum. (Being able to taste musical notes isn’t the norm? Really?) In April, I’m scheduled for a full day of extensive tests, which should hopefully give me more clarityContinue reading “getting an answer.”